我必須斷絕 對你的所有思念 才不會失去理智
那些思念像 蟑螂般爬來爬去 在我床上生一堆小孩
扔掉一捲捲的錄影帶 來提醒我很孤單
在腦中重複播放的 電影畫面就像家中的A片
我的自尊炙烤著我 緊張 在腦海中淌著血
我只求你給我一絲的平靜 妳該不會不會再打電話給我了吧?
妳也不會 當著我的面 再說你愛我了媽?
我想妳也 不可能再跟我聯絡了吧?
是我自己說 需要自由的阿... 今天請恨我 明天也請恨我
請為我沒有為你做的是恨我吧
用各種事情恨我吧!是的用那些很難忍受的方式恨我
恨我讓你終於能知道什麼才是對你最好的
我終於能清醒整整三個月這是妳幫我達到成果
那些撕裂我們的事情 我抵死也不想在碰觸
用病態的方式我想感謝妳 讓我的腦袋三更半夜還清醒著
而你在我身上引起戰火時 扔然想阻止戰端
妳從不質疑過我扭曲的想法 例如我的自毀性恨意
妳讓我過度自我感覺良好 當事情難以承受
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finaly see what’s good for you.
I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so *****ing far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

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